This is my last check-in with Surrender! Like all of you – I am totally shocked that the year is ending. How did that happen? How have I written twelve of these updates? If you’re interested, you can see all twelve here. And if you hover on “Word of the Year” above, you can read all of my updates since 2018. What a ride! And as always, thank you to Carolyn for hosting these monthly updates.
I’m a little “late” with this post. But things have been strange with the holidays and Matthew’s schedule and well… this blog has been put on the back burner for almost a week. But this year, I’ve learned to surrender my expectations and have come to understand that there are no requirements here. This blog is meant to be a fun activity, not a measurement of any sort of success in my life. And honestly — success compared to what? (she says, in her best Marcel the Shell with Shoes On voice.)
Surrender has been the perfect mantra this week because my house is a total wreck. There are piles of gifts and goodies in every corner and I am tripping over toys and nonsense everyday. Normally, I put the Christmas chaos away almost immediately. I’d shove toys in the playroom, where things get ignored, piled up, and never used. But this year I’m watching to see what is actually getting used and considering what might be grown into. Anything that doesn’t pass muster will be donated or disposed of, instead of just being added to the pile of unwanted toys. I am surrendering to the mess for now in the hopes that it will help us with the bigger mess in the long run.
Surrender has served me so well this year. It hasn’t meant that I’ve given up on anything or have let life run roughshod over me. It’s been a reminder that there are many ways to reach a goal and that it’s okay if real life doesn’t mirror my ideal vision. I am surrounded by humans with their own interests, needs, and ideals. I cannot control them nor should I want to. My desire is to create an environment that is rich with learning and love. Sometimes that means the floor will be dirty or there will be dishes in the sink. Sometimes my blog posts won’t follow the schedule in my own head. It’s okay to surrender the idea of perfection and just live the life we have.
I’m ready for a new word in the new year. I have a front-runner but haven’t completely decided, so let’s hope I can make a decision and that I’m ready to write about it on the last Monday of January 2023!
Thank you all, as always, for your patience and kindness over the last year. Having this blog has helped refine my life in so many ways and it’s because of all of you. I hope to be back at some point this week with another update (or two? don’t get cocky, Katie) but just in case I don’t make it here: here’s to a wonderful 2023. Take good care!