Friends, we only have one month left with this year’s word. How can that be?! Stillness has been such a good fit for 2021 and I don’t think I’m ready to leave it behind. Of course, I don’t have to! I have a new word picked out for 2022, but Stillness will continue to work well with it and it’s going to be fun to marry the two together as the new year begins.
Today I’m talking about working Stillness into my struggling morning routine. I’m still learning to accept what my body needs right now despite wanting to do so much more, which I think many of us can relate to.
I had a solid morning routine for about a year and a half. I’d wake up, without fail, at 4:30 to an already bubbling pot of coffee and my journal. After journaling, I’d do a little early morning reading, some yoga, and then spend time writing blog posts and commenting on friends’ blogs. I loved being an extra-early morning person. I loved knowing that I’d typically have around 2 hours of quiet time, full of reflection and connection with blogging friends.
I’m not sure what happened last summer, but it became more difficult for me to get out of bed so early. So my current morning routine is much shorter: I wake up at almost 6am and do about 20 minutes of early morning stitching before I need to get the kids up and get the day started. That’s it.
Don’t get me wrong. That 20 minutes of stitching does a lot for me and there’s visible progress on my early morning project. And yet – I really miss having that morning reflection time. I want it back!
I’ve spent a lot of time beating myself up about it. Why can’t I wake up early enough? Why am I so lazy? Why can’t I figure this out despite doing it for so long before?
And then I remember: Stillness. I don’t have to do all of the things. I can give myself a little break. Of course I’m not lazy. Of course I can wake up early when I need to. I just don’t need to wake up at 4:30 right now. Maybe it is an opportunity to squeeze a few extra things into my day, but those things aren’t necessary.
I’m still waking up before the kids. I’m doing something for myself. Everyone is where they need to be on time. Why not just listen to my body and do what feels natural for me right now?
“What you already have is better than what you so desperately seek.”
Cloud Cuckoo Land
And this has been what Stillness was about this year: being content with where I am and what I do every day. To not constantly strive for perfection in my day and to focus on where I’m finding joy. Right now I’m finding joy in those 20 minutes of stitching and plenty of time in bed. My morning routine will shift again when the time is right – I don’t have to force it. Everything flows in a cycle for me and everything comes round again. This is a period of rest and I’m learning to embrace it rather than fight it. I hope you’re also embracing wherever you happen to be and know that it’s bringing strength into your life, even if it’s in the smallest ways.
Thank you to our wonderful host, Carolyn. Please go check out her blog and everyone else who is participating in this month’s linkup. And did you see the amazing post she published earlier this month? She invited a group of bloggers to share their processes for identifying their words each year – what a massive undertaking! Of course, she did a phenomenal job and the post is worth returning to time and again while preparing for 2022.
I’m so excited to see what my word brings for me in December, a month when Stillness can be so hard to find but the most perfect way to end the year. May we all find stillness and peace throughout the last month of 2021.